An audio book.
The dedication mentions Don Quixote and Sarah Bannan our wounded soldier whose beloved sailor Rory departed this world .
She is bringing up a baby boy ("you"). The husband moves into the box room. After an argument he says he wants to communicate only via a solicitor. It's unclear when this happens - the age of the child varies from 0 to 4 years. Next day he says he didn't mean it. He works long hours. She does childcare - "The world rotated beneath us and we were the world." At one point she identifies with the virgin Mary (who suffered long-term whereas her crucified son didn't). She leaves her son in the grass with a message in his blanket and walks away - with pills? She sees a nestling on the ground. She's dive-bombed by the mother bird. She hears a dog barking when its owner finds the baby. She returns to collect the baby. The child is so "committed to being a baby that it spends half the night practising". She goes to playgroups where mothers sniff their babies to see if they need changing. Cars are parked on pavements, making buggy-pushing dangerous. The cashier are the supermarket outpaces her. Whenever she shares photos of the child doing something cute, the father quickly replies with a smiley. When he returns home the child has a bump on his head and she's hurt herself. He says that a workmate's wife had post natal depression and knives were hidden from her. One evening when he asks about her day she says that she met a friend in the playground, and she thinks she sounds like a 4 year old. He reacts as if she is. But she's met a friendly father whose wife is a doctor. She knew him at school.
They lose the child while in IKEA and blame each other. They constantly blicker. He has a busy job. He doesn't do his fair share of childcare - changing the odd nappy (and doing it pooorly) is insufficient. She takes the child in a buggy to the shore, becomes surrounded by water, has to abandon the buggy (with wallet and phone in it) and wade to safety. Maybe her friend is there to help. She will eventally ask the husband to leave?
It's a man's world. The boy dresses as Superman. The person working in the Charity Shop is a witch.
Other reviews
- Sarah Crown
- Stephanie Merritt
- Stuart Kelly (The narrative is as fractious as a toddler, with jumps in time (is Sailor two, four, newborn?) and points where there is no distinction between what Soldier imagines might happen and what is happening.)
- The fiction fox (My problem with it, is that there are already so many books that do this exact same thing. ... critiques of one individual man cross the line into generalized man-hate. I’m very tired of that trope. ... It crossed a line from righteous annoyance to wallowing in victimhood for me.)